So this is what it should feel like??

Below is a message I sent to a good friend of mine concerning the weekend I had with the 34 year old gal I just met. I had an amazing weekend. Saturday night our first meeting went very well also, but last night was just amazing..................

I had the best time today that I have probably ever had in my life. It's 3am & I am just getting home. We didn't have sex, things were to the point it could have easily gone that way, but I would have said no. We went to the mall this afternoon, walked around, held hands, visited an ice cream shop and then just sat, talked snuggled and people watched. Left there to go to Walmart and I realized I left something in my truck when she asked about it I said it was no biggie that I would pick it up later. She wouldn't listen and drove all the way back home so I could get it. walked around walmart together then went to a nice (not expensive) restaurant to eat. Had a good meal and went back to her place. I met her son, he was a little apprehensive at first, but came out in a little while and we talked a good little bit. He said he was good with me, but I should go meet "mean aunt cindy"...lol. To see if I hated her to...lol. When he was in his room I sneaked a kiss, first one. She was good with it, I told her I just had to…lol. Christy showed me around the complex she manages, it’s big and she has a lot of pride in it. We went for a LONG walk together holding hands and I would stop every now and then and touch her face or massage her shoulders. She was liking it. I figured the walk was about over when we made it back to the road going into the complex, but oh no, she pulled my hand and we walked a lot more. She wound up skipping the bonfire she had planned to attend. We spent the rest of the night on her porch and on the tailgate of my truck. I have never just held someone and felt the way I did. She was feeling it to. I kissed her around the neck so many times and her breathing was letting me know it was all good. I would tell her how good she felt and one time I said “I don’t know when or how long it will take, but at some point I am going to kiss every inch of your body like this” (she melted into me). So many times we would get to a heated point and someone would come by on the road and we would calm down. Never losing touch, but slacking off. At one point when we were holding each other I told her I could hold her like this in my arms and fall asleep without any other expectations. She is a little reserved and I had asked her the other day about how she was with taking initiative, tonight she said she wasn’t good at making moves. I explained why it was important to me, that I had always been the one initating & wanted someone to "want me". From that point on she was more aggressive. She squeezed and touched my arms, neck and chest, massaged by back when her arms were around me & Held onto me. When I would rest my head on her shoulder she would kiss around my neck. I would get chill bumps all over and told her so. I made sure she could hear my breaths in her ear and would just jerk a little at her slightest touch. She was loving it. I felt something tonight I don’t think I have ever felt before.

We talked about so many things, serious things, expectations, past experiences and why WE ARE the way we are. She is just like me about so many feelings. We even talked about having kids. She knew I only have 1 daughter and asked about kids. The whole story about me wanting a boy came up and out she pops with she had thought of Maybe having another child. Her son is 15. We could not keep or hands off each other. Never once did I touch her below the belt other than stroking her legs and ankles when she was sitting on my tailgate.. (BTW we got our asses eat up with mosquitoes) (& It DIDN'T MATTER) I have got to get to bed. I think I will sleep, I KNOW I will be thinking of her! Can’t wait to hear your thoughts.

Moving Along

Well I've had a pretty good week. Had a couple heart to heart talks withthe 27 year old and I doubt I will waste much more time on her. I went to Dance classes Wednesday (with a Friend)and will be going back tonight (without her...lol). I plan to do some prowling, like a Lion on the hunt.....lol No i'm not being a "dog", but I am exploring my possibilities! To quote my new interest " thats the Magic of divorce".

I've been walking on some trails right down the road from work, Great Exercise!! Have dropped a few more lbs this week. Getting comments and clothes fitting differently keeps me motivated.

I started talking with a 34 year old gal (my new interest) a few days ago and that is progressing nicely. She is separated from 15 years of marriage and we have had a few 3 or 4 hour chats. We're going to meet tomorrow afternoon. She is really funny!, gives me lots of attention (which I like), seems to like the fact I am a "nice guy" and oh yeah did i say she is 34....lol. I knew from the start I wanted to wind up with a younger woman and don't plan to compromise on that. I canceled a date with a 37 year old yesterday, I just wasn't "feeling it". She was a lil upset, but life goes on. I'm not perfect by no means, but shit when your 37 you shouldn't have gone to hell already....lol.

The 34 year old may not be perfect, but she is doing the right things, enough so that I may be willing to give it a little time. She had a bad husband and is a little low on self esteem, but maybe with a little support that can change. Another thing I like is she is 1/2 japanese, Has a completely different outlook than these caucasion gals do. For long time readers you may remember a whole blog story on my thoughts on that....lol. Yeah I'm still Big Mike, but this gal is 5'9" also so she might "fit" as well as the 6'0" tall gal I was with a few weeks ago. Regardless I hope to have fun tomorrow evening. She is a little shy and I'm not being pushy, but I am trying to get her to open on on some things. Oh by the way......She sounds so sweet on the phone!!!!

Well I'll write more maybe Sunday and fill all 1 of you that reads and responds in on how the weekend goes!!

Be Sweet & Stay Safe!!

Updates....

Well lot of changes again. I am back to not talking with the 27 year old. Quit talking to her for a week and out of the blue, she starts texting again. Always ends up with an excuse to not go out, so to make a long story short I told her until she decides what she TRULY wants, she needs to just let me go and not contact me. I am still talking with the gal I slept with, not everyday but 4 or 5 times this week. I am playing it cool with her & not "being a fool" like I have done with the other one. One positive thing about her is that she will initate conversations, although random, It's bertter than nothing.

My biggest news is I am working my ass off to really get toned up and in shape. I came to the realization that to have what I "want" in a woman I have to "give" it back to her. Years and years of married life, i pretty much took for granted that "being a good guy" was enough to "please" most women, but being single again has snapped me into reality. I have a goal and will get there. I've been eating right for over a year now and hitting the gym, working out at home & walking a coule miles everyday I can is paying off. I am starting to like what I am seeing in the mirror & as much as I critique other people thats a good thing. If i like it, I'm sure someone else will.

Well best of luck to everyone! I will keep you all posted, Been working on tanning also, so when it all comes together I may post a pic of the finished product here. Take Care, Mike

Drama, Sex, Drama, Love.....

Wow, Lots going on lately!! Been meeting some new ladies since I've moved out, 3 of them were no dice, I didn't feel any connection there. This 4th one though we did hit it off nice. Had dinner on Thursday and talked for about 4 hours, didn't talk alot Friday, but went out Saturday night. Went to a local festival and from the moment we got out of the truck she had my hand in hers. We spent the evening walking around, looking listening to music and visiting. Had a really good time.

We would stop and kiss or I'd rub her shoulders while we were standing, listening to music. Lots of laughing and conversation. We decided to leave the festival and go shoot pool, but never made it inside. We started talking and making out in my truck and the next thing I know she wants to know how far it is to my place. I seriously wasn't expecting things to move so quickly, but after deciding 30 minutes was to far to make it to my place, we got a hotel and OMG did we have a hell of a night! It's been 20 years since I was with another woman and the thought that crossed my mind after everything was going on is "WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING" for waiting so long to leave my wife. This gal is 6 ft tall and I'm 6'5" talk about things fitting right and positions working out. She was an absolute "freak". I loved it. We had wild sex for about 3 hours and then got dressed and went to breakfast at 1:30 in the morning. Came back to the hotel and got right back in it till almost 4am. She fell asleep with me massaging her and I was so fired up sleep was the farthest thing from my mind.

Well The story doesn't always have a happy ending, but when we parted ways Sunday everything was great. Then she starts having problems from her "ex", we had discussed alot of things while we were talking in bed, her living situation etc; and now the ex is on her ass. Making threats & all kind of crap. So she is going to go to Georgia for a couple weeks with her aunt to try and let it cool down. I offered to help in any way I could, but I'm not dragging myself into a potentialy dangerous situation over a night of great sex.

I am a nice guy and would do about anything for anyone, but my past experiences with being "played" have made a dramatic effect on my willingness to tolerate BS. I am going to meet another gal this week, she's 37, 6 years younger than me, the red head was 38 btw, & I'll see where this one goes......

The 27 year old that I have been in limbo with for over two years has been making some serious efforts to let me know she is still there. I had quit talking with her again for a few weeks now. She stopped me the other day and was telling me how "special of a man I was to her", always asking how I'm doing, what I'm eating, telling me things she cooks, and we've been texting alot lately. I'll play along & who knows something may come of it. But in the meantime I won't have all my eggs in one basket and will be quick to move on at the first sign of any BS.

So, for Right Now, Big Mike is smiling and checking out some long forgotten opportunities.