Fate???

I thought it was weird how similiar my Singles Horoscope and my Chinese Horoscope were today. Maybe I should listen more closely to them.

Chinese:
It's not unusual for the most appealing thing to be that which is most unattainable. If you suffer from a mild obsession with something or someone that is beyond your grasp, you may wish to find another diversion until the fixation passes. Would you still crave the object of your desire as much if it were yours to keep?

Daily Singles Horoscope:
Look closely at this person, no matter how enticing he or she seems. Does this pretty package actually have anything on the inside? Not getting what you want actually proves to be very valuable.

I have backed off from the person I am crazy about. It's kind of hard to compete with a 23 year old when your 42. I haven't really been competing, but I damn sure make him work hard to keep what he's got. I treat her with the respect she deserves and he knows it...lol. She never will admit that she's dating someone, but I know better and told her the other day I wasn't a dumbass.

Just for the record...SSDD at home with the wife. Thats a story for another day. I hope everyone is doing well!
Mike

Bitching again...

Well it's been awhile since I stopped in to unload here at my blog so here it goes..... I woke up yesterday to having an arguement with the wife the Very First Thing in the morning. I thought about it on my way to work and texted her the following ..."Counseling or quits? We need to make a decision here. There is no need to keep tearing each other apart." Well she had a different attitude that afternoon when I got home. I still don't think a damn thing is solved, but "once again" she knows I am tired of the shit. I doubt anything will change and after 18 years I guess we are just mulling along like a creature of habit will do. One day something will snap, a line will be crossed just a little to far and I am sure we will seperate.

I think about my options all the time, I have saved a little money on the side that she is unaware of and in a pinch I have a place to go. I am generally a strong free willed person, but have fell into a life of convieance. It's to easy to come home and avoid her if things aren't going well to be driven to leave. Last year I was anxious to go, I had someone to go to. Someone better, Someone new. Why didn't I leave then? Scared, stupid, compliacent or a combination of all three. I'm 42 and hate the thougth of starting over. My daughter turns 18 in 11 days, that will be a relief also!

Oh well, I will get back to dreaming in my mind and waiting until the day the line is crossed or something snaps.