Maybe I am Psychic

Life is scary sometimes and the mind can do mysterious things. Right after posting my last blog titled "A little Jealous" I had an experience that made it true. I went out to tell my "lil someone" good bye for the day and we were talking about a work related issue. I was explaining something to her and another employee when "the new girl"( who is a very cute mexican girl) walked by heading into the office. It's unusual for a production worker to go in the office so I glanced to see who is was. That apparently was the wrong thing to do. The girl I am crazy about said "concentrate sweetheart" and stomped off. Even though I was completely innocent it did feel good to see her blood boil a little. She is a mexican also and has the temper to back it up...lol. I stopped her on the way out and told her that I didn't appreciate that, because there was nothing intended. I told her I hoped she felt better (because she was sick) and she said "she would be fine" very short and to the point. I responded "I know you will" also short and to the point...lol and walked off. So if nothing else I did get the satisfaction of knowing what it feels like for someone to be "A little jealous" of me........

A little Jealous...

I have read several of the posts here lately and one thing is apparent.... Life doesn't have to be dull and boring. Although everyone's experiences are not always joyous at least you are having experiences. I guess in a way I am having them also, it's just their the same ones over and over. They are mostly negative or mundane to say the least. Rarely do I experience something exciting with my spouse. She has no drive, desires or imitative to make things happen or to have fun. She is content with doing nothing, being a homebody, or in my opinion just being a "Lazy Bitch". She has been on vacation all last week and this week and I could probably accomplish all the things she has done in 1/2 a day.

I have spent the last couple of weekends in the woods hunting, I haven't taken any game, but being active and around alot of other people has been a nice change. While this has been exciting it does little to fill my time during the week. I am desperately looking for that someone, that experience to break up my routine.

I went to the bar Friday night and took the wife. I don't drink, but she had 2. I saw a woman who owns a restaurant in town and I have talked to her a couple times at her place. She didn't see my wife with me and when I walked up and started talking to her it was apparent that if I had of been alone I wouldn't have been for long. She asked if my "girlfriend" was with me, she didn't think I was married. I had mentioned to her in the past that I was married, whether she selectively forgot I don't know. She is not a bad looking woman and seems to be "fun loving" I may have to visit the restaurant a little more often, alone, and see what happens.

I haven't wasted to much time on my "true obsession" lately. We still talk and she knows how I feel. I can't do anything else about it. She told me this morning she was sick last night and was not feeling well today. I offered to bring her anything I could to help her feel better, but she said she would be OK. The conversation though it seemed negative, was sincere. She knows I was heartfelt in my concern for her and I could feel in the air that she would have liked it if I could have held her in my arms. When our eyes meet I can see into her soul and her into mine. It's one of those rare situations where the unspoken things say so much. We talk about her daughter and she asks my opinion on things from time to time, usually we agree and she tells me how things turned out. I show my genuine concern and she reciprocates by valuing my opinion.

Well I have to go for now work calls.......

I am glad to read some positive posts.....

I have read several posts lately and I am glad that everything is not always negative. One thing that strikes me odd on several of the posts is that people are having the most fun when you are either with someone strange or by yourself. Not many of us post fun things that we do with our significant others. Is that because we don't do that many fun things with our significant others? or do we take them for granted and they don't come to the fore front of our minds?

After reading the responses to the letter I posted the other day I have done a 180 and have been avoiding the person I was referring to. This I guess is the most logical thing to do, but at the same time it has taken away one of the things that I really looked forward to, my fun thing. It feels good to be complimented by someone young and beautiful. Beats the hell out of arguing with the wife! Another positive thing I received from talking with her was the conversation. Sharing things that are going on with me and hearing about the things she is dealing with, that was really nice. There are alot of days I may speak 10 words or less with my wife. I catch myself hanging around work later and later just to avoid coming home. Even though I may be in my office away from the action I can always walk out and talk with someone. When I finally decide to leave may call my brother or parents just to chat on the 50 min ride home. I will call home and ask if anything is needed, but the conversations are short and uncaring, just like the offer I had to have sex with the wife tonight (which I turned down). Just a tip for the ladies.... don't tell the hubby to go ahead and get a shower so you can go have sex soon, because your tired and want to go to sleep. I guess that I should be happy she made the offer, hell it's only been close to 2 weeks.

Sorry if I have been negative for like.....forever. I am really not that type of person. Although I have allowed myself to dwell on the negative way to much lately. I like to laugh and joke. I am first in line to crack a joke and always have a quick comeback for a friendly verbal jab. I like doing fun things and I have a ton of energy to expend. It's not uncommon for me to stay up 17-20 hours on Friday & Saturday. I'm a night owl by nature, the later it gets the more alert I become. I can talk to almost anyone and have a great conversation, but no matter who I am talking with I can't (or won't) tell them the thoughts I am really having. There is one lady who lives a couple of hours from me who knows the things I have been going through and I even met her once to talk at lunch, but other than her and the folks here at blogspot thats it. Well tomorrows the day after Thursday so I better get to bed and Friday will finally be here! Thanks for listening.

Boring Shit

I Guess my last post was the same ole boring shit. I kind of like to hear opinions or comments on posts as I make several to the ones I follow, not all grant you, but several. I post to get feedback and hopefully your valuable opinions when I ask questions. Let me know if the crap is boring and I'll save my time.