Made the move.....

Well last week I had all I could take with my home life situation. I have been looking at places to stay for a long time and found one last Tuesday. I was out of the house by Thursday. Today I got my Cable hooked up and also back on the internet!! Atleast I can have a little normalcy now.

I had quit talking to the woman I am in love with for about 6 or so weeks and before I made the final step to move out she started texting me. We texted all weekend and thats when I increased my efforts to move out. She didn't know anything about it until it was done. We talked/texted for several days and now that Mothers Day is over we are back to not talking. In her defense she found out yesterday her Dad is in the hospital and I know that is weighing heavy on her mind. I know she had been dating someone and she told be it was over the weekend before Mothers Day when we started texting. I bought her flowers Friday and a gift card in her Mothers Day card. gave her daughter some $ to shop for her and then the other flowers came today.... I don't blame the guy I would try also. I do blame her though for not responding to me this afternoon. I am giving her the benefit of the doubt and hoping she is just concerned for her Father, but in my heart I think I have been used again.

I honestly don't know why I have to be so Damn Stupid. Not about moving away from home, that situation has been terrible for a long time. I know in the end I will be much better off for it! I have talked to a few women from the "dating sites" met 2 of them in person, but they are not what I am looking for. Well I have vented here a little, I don't feel a whole lot better, but a little. When I walked away for the 6 weeks I had got to a point I was pretty much ok with it. Then get drug right back in like a puppy on a leash. I have known her for a little over 2 years and there is so much that is special about her, We never have had a sexual relationship and all of my love for her comes from actually knowing her as a person. This is the only woman I have ever spent this much time "getting to know" and knowing her for who she is as a person really really breaks my heart not to be with her.............