Soo Tiring...

The last year has been a wearisome one. It has had it's ups and downs, Good times and bad. Now I am almost at a stand still. I have been looking for a companion to walk with me through this crazy thing called life. Someone who is compatible with me and who is AVAILABLE emotionally. There are alot of people who for whatever reason aren't available to commit to someone or to even open up to them completely.

I am just really at a point that I do not know what I am willing to settle for or what I want to do next. I know in my heart what I have to offer, finding the person that is "my match" to share it with is frustrating. I get offers to date, go out quite often, but they are not the ones I want to spend my time with or offer myself to. Why is it that is how we always react? Do we expect perfection when we do not have it to offer? If only we could open our eyes and see from the inside out to start with, maybe just maybe we could find the happiness we so desire.

So for now. I am tired, beat down, dejected & at a stand still. I am losing my desire to "play the game" or "continue the hunt". Writing here used to be a release so I think I will be back very soon.

Mike